That Will Teach Me

Last post I wrote about vague worries and how I shouldn't let them spoil good days. This week I realized how important that is. Jamie had a week with events that made me rethink many decisions of the last six months. How do you advise an adult child who refuses to agree that your ideas would probably have worked out best...until after lots of time and $$ has been spent on the plan he pushed through, which looks like it's not going to work? I've reached the bottom of my $$ (and gone even deeper than that) so at least asking for more money for another plan isn't an option for Jamie. I am very sad and worried about a real problem (which was a real problem last week when I wrote the blog, but I didn't know it). What next?

One Year Later

All's quiet and sometimes that's unsettling. I try to fill a quiet space with worries and imaginings. I should relax and enjoy the moment.
Last year on this Friday night, we were just settling in at home after Katie and Greg's wedding rehearsal and the rehearsal dinner. Unusually for me, I didn't write anything much in a journal or a blog about the wedding time. There are lots of pictures, some organized in albums on Facebook, and I keep planning to do more with the Pro Gold program to put some of it together as a slide show.
If I just think about the rehearsal evening...hmmm, it's a blur with any memories becoming tied together with the photos of the evening. The only video we have of the rehearsal or the wedding (that I know of) was a very short one taken by Kyle as Katie and Brian walked up the aisle at the rehearsal.
I could write lots about how my disappointment and - I have to admit it - anger with Laurel and Melanie and their "pre-emptive wedding strike" coloured parts of the rehearsal, but thank heavens play a really small part in memories of the wedding day.
It is one of those - it must have been just last month - it must all have happened ten years ago kind of events. The biggest family change since the wedding has been Jamie's move to Japan. Will there be another wedding next year in Japan? I'll be wearing my suit from Kate's wedding and of course, my whimsey - feather hat. There's a memory. When Dan walked me into the church, we sat with Mom in the front row and Cousin Nancy and her family sat just behind us. Nancy saw my hat, leaned forward, and asked, "A tribute to Camilla, perhaps?" That was the little giggle I needed to relax a bit!
Katie and Greg looked wonderful. We were pleased with the way it all "went off".
It was the "Sweetest Day" of our lives.
Tomorrow we're going to Murray Houser's wedding and I think I'll wear the jacket from my suit - but not the skirt because a)a bit too dressy and b)it still has some grease marks on the back where I must have sat in crumbs when I was touring and visiting during the reception. Oh, and not the hat 'cause it's definitely a wedding mother kind of thing!